I’m terrible at goodbyes.
I’ve cried
when
I moved away from a best friend,
a best friend moved away from me,
I just missed my cats’ last few breaths, twice
I drove away from my dying friend – every time I drove away.
I’ve even cried
when
my plays were over
when
I said goodbye to my first class of second graders
when
The custodians threw away my classroom couch
when
movies end
when
grandparents leave family gatherings in dramatic commercials
Of course I cried
when
I dropped off my daughter at college.
I’m terrible at goodbyes.
I don’t like them.
I guess I’m
sentimental
sensitive
stuck – in the past
Somehow when my soon to be ex-husband
Took a couch, a chair,
a toaster oven
over to his new house
I didn’t cry.
Maybe I’ve gotten all the tears out over the last year, and I’m done.
Who am I kidding?
I’m terrible at goodbyes.
Sentimental
Sensitive
Stuck.
On a Thought 
Goodbyes are never easy, but sometimes they are necessary. Tears may come, but we get through them.
Crying is ok. Not crying is ok. Writing things out is good. If there are good-byes, there are also hellos. May you find the strength to get unstuck. May you have opportunities to say hello to new discoveries, experiences and beautiful people. May you have many reasons to smile and laugh.
So glad you feel safe in this space to write and work through your life right now. The line of yours that got me was the classroom couch being removed…so many moments occurred in that space. Of course tears. Do keep writing. It is the one thing that helps me through all the times in my life.
Whoa! Reflective. One of the best slices.
Love your post. Bittersweet. Letting go is hard, no matter how small what you’re letting go of is. Se sing you lots of positive energy your way.
Ona, I know how this feels! Also, twenty years post divorce, I know how it feels to look at something that seemed so important to keep, to “win” in the settlement, and know that I need it gone.